Life’s no CupCake!
As I begin this new year with hope, excitement and optimism, I can’t help but to reflect on a year just past that was full of twist and turns at every corner.
Some of those surprises were great, like the birth of our lil ANGEL. Then there was…..THE BIRTH OF OUR lil ANGEL, who was born just a couple months after her big brothers 1st birthday. At that moment, I wasn’t sure if I was going to weather the storm of holding down a full time job, homeschooling a 8 and 7 year old, chasing a 1 yr old, and breast feeding a new born, while on the phone with clients. It sounds worse than it really was….sorta, lol.
Then there was the loss of my job one week after returning from Maternity leave. In fact, as my boss broke the news to me on the phone, I had to laugh. No doubt this caused some interesting thoughts to run through her mind, as she heard me chuckle. But, I later explained to her that I had already prayed the week before I returned to work, that God would help me make a decision as to rather I should keep my job or quit to be a full time mom ONLY. I knew without a shadow of a doubt He had made that decision for me and so I had to have peace with it. Yet, still in the back of my mind I worried how would we make it with 4 kids and one income….but I had to trust.
Then as I awaited my last day of work, we received word that my husband was being called to a different area of work/ministry, and we would be relocating, yet again for the 7th time over the last 10 years. It was a welcomed change, and yet one that we had no clue what to expect. But, we knew that the circumstances leading up to this must have been molded by God. So, we went forward, excited and anticipating the best.
Not to long after that, some very sad news came that would prove to impact us for the rest of our lives. It was a great shaking and brought us to a point of real reflection and humility. It did however, make us stronger and more prepared for what we were walking into as a family of ministry.
Packing and moving into a new home proved to be much more of a daunting task than we anticipated, but we made it through, and thanked God for the extra space, that He no doubt new we needed, as our family had grown out of the 3 bedroom apartment – and now a family of 6 instead of 4.
In the middle of the year, my grandmother had passed away. A women who played such a large roll in my life, was no longer here with us. Even now, I don’t think I have really morned her loss, with the business of life.
Getting close to the end of the year, realizing that people are people, churches are essentially hospitals and people are in need of healing, and that you don’t have all the answers, nor are you the answer. Also, realizing you are not super woman, and can’t do it all, yet some how…you do it all. lol
Finally, as the new year approached, sleeping in a hotel, with my family awaiting our return home from the holiday with our families, the next day, an alarm goes off (I had just finally got the babies down to sleep, who weren’t going without a fight). 11:45pm on the alarm clock next to the bed, we franticly got dressed, as I listened to my lil girl scream, “IT’S A FIRE, IT’S A FIRE”, grabbing what we could in minimal clothing, rushing down the stairs, with screaming children. Finally reaching the bottom of the stairs and entering our car, to get word it was just a false alarm. I thought to myself, “It figures, it wouldn’t be right if the year didn’t go out with a false alarm, LOL”.
We made it back up to the room a short time later, re-tucked in the kids, and said a little prayer thanking God it was just a false alarm. Everyone closed their eyes, and I remember looking over at the alarm clock as I watched it go from 11:58 to MIDNIGHT. I looked over at my husband and said, “happy new year”, with a grin. He replied, “happllllllloouuourllyy Neeee yyyeaaa…snooze!”. Just that quick it was all gone. 2011 was no more.
WE MADE IT! of course there were times when I thought there was no way we would. All of the change, all of the tragedy, all of the loss, and all of the challenges…..we made it! Now here we are in this new year. Already faced with some challenges, already accepting that we won’t be able to make it without GOD, I am still excited about the possibilities of it all. So much so, that I am decided to step out on a limb and become Self-employed. Yes, my own boss! Doing a little bit of this and a little bit of that, but no more working for others. It’s time that I venture out and live my dream. So, PieWakie is born, and there is no turning back.
LIfe doesn’t have to be CUPCAKES…..but you can sure enjoy them while on the ride.
Join me on my journey at PieWakie.wordpress.com and check out my items. A little bit of this, and a little bit of that .
The featured cupcake is a Carob Chocolate Peanut Butter surprise….of course with a BIG HUG inside!